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I was about to embark on a cover letter when I felt compelled to write this letter before letter. Otherwise, I will forever be distracted from planning my career proper.

So it appears that I’ve been faced with a major distraction. An insignificant seed has been provoked into something more significant.

And whichever way this is heading towards, I’ve been plunging along in a terribly helpless manner.

I could not tend to my need for rationalization. I wasn’t able to save myself.

I’m drawn to a flawed being who said I made him calm and nervous at the same time.

I have to concede defeat, even while rolling my eyes.